Cracked (7/365)

Where: West Village/Chelsea-ish, NYC
When: Today

So I'm trying an experiment with the meditation. Well, really it's more of an experiment with motivating to get back to consistently meditating. I'm going to combine it with the 365 project, in an attempt to give it the same kind of "I have to do this every day" priority in my mind. So along with the photo, I'm going to include a little blurb about whether I meditated and how it went.

Some days during meditation I find that my thoughts are stickier than others. Today was an extra sticky day, and the various thoughts and future scenario imaginings were so absorbing that they were almost dreamlike in intensity and clarity, and it was very difficult to extricate myself to an observer position. Towards the end, I wondered if the extra sticky days would correlate to a more depressive state, since it might indicate that I'd continue to have trouble being aware of the inner dialogue that day, and therefore if a critical thought pattern developed, I wouldn't notice in time to pull back and observe it and would instead get absorbed into the familiar emotional spiral.

Of course, it's possible that doing the meditation can shift the balance towards awareness for the rest of the day, thus negating any "sticky mind day" effect. So who knows.